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November
I have several very dear Polish friends, and something that will be stuck in my head forever is that "November" in Polish is "Listopad".
I think it's a cute sounding word, but also it's pleasantly seasonal for those of us in the northern hemisphere's temperate regions.
Yeah... I think the only format that works for me for blogging is just short snippets of thoughts on various subjects, once every few weeks.
If I'm lucky, a theme might emerge. But I don't think it did this time. Oh well.
I want to keep working on cultivating my friendships and acquaintances from cohost. We have some small foundation, right? Some likelihood that we might get along and, well, obviously nothing is obligated to work out but I want to keep trying to reach out to people once in a while.
It's tough to do it when most of us have social anxiety though. And we're all dealing with a lot right now.
Sorry to everyone I've been too hesitant to contact... it's hard to know what to say.
I hope the door of possibility stays open for a while.
I'll certainly be keeping it open from my side.
I have, however, met one whole cohost mutual in real life.
The organized cohost wake for our region was a little too far away. Not impossible, but the timing and distance made it difficult for personal reasons. And since we were both sad about missing the same wake... we compared locations and made plans to meet up locally instead.
With an eggbug.
It went well. I think I have a new local friend.
On a different subject, not as much progress on the Decker project as I would hope. Head empty.
I would like to finish it by the end of this month, but, uh. Well. Uh oh. Where did the first part of the month go?
I won't crunch. I won't. But I'll try to get the bare minimum done.
It's intended to be supplementary documentation for the kinds of stuff I enjoy making in the program, similar to the backstage area in the Riddle but with more stuff.... and more examples. And hopefully it will be easier to update with new info and more subjects as time goes on.
Here's (probably) the cutest example I've made for it so far:
This Eggbug is inside of a draggable canvas (canvases are image container widgets, and they can also do other things).
Our sweet buggo is kept inside the big rectangle by the rect[ ] module's constrain.
Whenever the image changes it's because Eggbug has overlapped with one of the eight hidden widgets (doesn't matter what kind they are) that are placed along the edges and corners of the bigger area. The script inside of eggbug's canvas uses the rect[ ] module to notice that "eggbug" and "toprightcorner" are overlapping and then the script copies the appropriately squished eggbug image onto the canvas for the current location.
More or less.
Anyway, I hope that kinda made sense. My head is a mess lately.
But if you're into this kind of stuff I hope you'll come and try dragging squishy eggbug around when it's published.
It would be good to get it out before Deck-Month 2 (the December Decker jam) begins... but I won't force it. I'll just try moderately.
I can't even think about what to do for the jam yet....
But! Also kind of interesting, for any enjoyers of Decker's ditherpunk aesthetic.... there's another relevant jam coming up that overlaps with Deck-Month: DITHERJAM which runs from December 5th to 12th. I have yet to publish a dithered Decker project on itch.io, but.... hmm, maybe?
I'm still working on my neocities site, I swear. I have a layout built for a new big section. I just gotta... put all the stuff in it. There's a lot to do.
And then I need to remember how to update the RSS feed... as proof of life, I guess? I'm still out here... I'm just tired.
I've drawn a little bit in recent weeks. Personal work, mostly. Stuff that isn't so easy to post without context.
Goofing off with one or two people or in small discord servers. Cards for two friend's birthdays. A drawpile.
But here are the big highlights.
A (slightly spoilery) fanart of a game you have either played or you haven't.
Intern Vocaloid Eggbug (and Edgebug) performing magnet:
And a rare pen drawing from me, some Decker-related characters and creatures out in the rain:
:)
A final musical note:
My most beloved internet band (the Garages) are performing at Desert Bus for Hope on Wednesday the 13th at approximately 1/4/9pm PST/EST/GMT.
"Anarcho-syndicalist blaseball band" might seem a little inaccessible as a concept but the key point here is that their discography has tons of songs about watching all your gay little friends get scattered to the wind by the forces of capitalism and other malicious entities... and choosing to fight back even if it seems impossible.
Relevant themes, sometimes.
Not sure what songs we're getting but they have historically chosen tracks with broad appeal for Desert Bus.
Anyway, whether or not that's of interest to anyone else... I'm looking forward to it.
I think it's a cute sounding word, but also it's pleasantly seasonal for those of us in the northern hemisphere's temperate regions.
"Liście opadają." The leaves are falling.
Yeah... I think the only format that works for me for blogging is just short snippets of thoughts on various subjects, once every few weeks.
If I'm lucky, a theme might emerge. But I don't think it did this time. Oh well.
I want to keep working on cultivating my friendships and acquaintances from cohost. We have some small foundation, right? Some likelihood that we might get along and, well, obviously nothing is obligated to work out but I want to keep trying to reach out to people once in a while.
It's tough to do it when most of us have social anxiety though. And we're all dealing with a lot right now.
Sorry to everyone I've been too hesitant to contact... it's hard to know what to say.
I hope the door of possibility stays open for a while.
I'll certainly be keeping it open from my side.
I have, however, met one whole cohost mutual in real life.
The organized cohost wake for our region was a little too far away. Not impossible, but the timing and distance made it difficult for personal reasons. And since we were both sad about missing the same wake... we compared locations and made plans to meet up locally instead.
With an eggbug.
It went well. I think I have a new local friend.
On a different subject, not as much progress on the Decker project as I would hope. Head empty.
I would like to finish it by the end of this month, but, uh. Well. Uh oh. Where did the first part of the month go?
I won't crunch. I won't. But I'll try to get the bare minimum done.
It's intended to be supplementary documentation for the kinds of stuff I enjoy making in the program, similar to the backstage area in the Riddle but with more stuff.... and more examples. And hopefully it will be easier to update with new info and more subjects as time goes on.
Here's (probably) the cutest example I've made for it so far:
This Eggbug is inside of a draggable canvas (canvases are image container widgets, and they can also do other things).
Our sweet buggo is kept inside the big rectangle by the rect[ ] module's constrain.
Whenever the image changes it's because Eggbug has overlapped with one of the eight hidden widgets (doesn't matter what kind they are) that are placed along the edges and corners of the bigger area. The script inside of eggbug's canvas uses the rect[ ] module to notice that "eggbug" and "toprightcorner" are overlapping and then the script copies the appropriately squished eggbug image onto the canvas for the current location.
More or less.
Anyway, I hope that kinda made sense. My head is a mess lately.
But if you're into this kind of stuff I hope you'll come and try dragging squishy eggbug around when it's published.
It would be good to get it out before Deck-Month 2 (the December Decker jam) begins... but I won't force it. I'll just try moderately.
I can't even think about what to do for the jam yet....
But! Also kind of interesting, for any enjoyers of Decker's ditherpunk aesthetic.... there's another relevant jam coming up that overlaps with Deck-Month: DITHERJAM which runs from December 5th to 12th. I have yet to publish a dithered Decker project on itch.io, but.... hmm, maybe?
I'm still working on my neocities site, I swear. I have a layout built for a new big section. I just gotta... put all the stuff in it. There's a lot to do.
And then I need to remember how to update the RSS feed... as proof of life, I guess? I'm still out here... I'm just tired.
I've drawn a little bit in recent weeks. Personal work, mostly. Stuff that isn't so easy to post without context.
Goofing off with one or two people or in small discord servers. Cards for two friend's birthdays. A drawpile.
But here are the big highlights.
A (slightly spoilery) fanart of a game you have either played or you haven't.
Intern Vocaloid Eggbug (and Edgebug) performing magnet:
And a rare pen drawing from me, some Decker-related characters and creatures out in the rain:
:)
A final musical note:
My most beloved internet band (the Garages) are performing at Desert Bus for Hope on Wednesday the 13th at approximately 1/4/9pm PST/EST/GMT.
"Anarcho-syndicalist blaseball band" might seem a little inaccessible as a concept but the key point here is that their discography has tons of songs about watching all your gay little friends get scattered to the wind by the forces of capitalism and other malicious entities... and choosing to fight back even if it seems impossible.
Relevant themes, sometimes.
Not sure what songs we're getting but they have historically chosen tracks with broad appeal for Desert Bus.
Anyway, whether or not that's of interest to anyone else... I'm looking forward to it.
Thoughts
That is pretty.
My partner's heritage includes Polish. I've picked up a few words, mostly foods.
>> Yeah... I think the only format that works for me for blogging is just short snippets of thoughts on various subjects, once every few weeks. <<
That's fine. Do what works for you.
>>It's tough to do it when most of us have social anxiety though. And we're all dealing with a lot right now.
Sorry to everyone I've been too hesitant to contact... it's hard to know what to say.<<
You don't have to contact people, but if you post with the Cohost interest or tag, that will help other chosters find you if they are looking.
>> A (slightly spoilery) fanart of a game <<
Very pretty.
>>And a rare pen drawing from me, some Decker-related characters and creatures out in the rain:<<
That is so adorable.
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And thank you very much for your kind comments on the artwork!
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Re: social anxiety. I'm always happy to hear from you/from people in general. I'm also terrible at reaching out but I'm trying to get better x_x now more than ever it seems like a good idea to keep in touch with cool people.
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👀 I always very happy to hear from you, too. I appreciated our small conversations on cohost.. oh gosh, that was mostly 2 years ago wasn't it.... but still! I was glad that we had some small points of contact after cohost and I 100000% am not bothered by long gaps between conversations.
I will find the courage to reach out more sometime! And I am steadily here for you, now and into the future.
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Very happy for you. T_T
I've never played that game, but your drawing is so cool... I love the muted orange and greens you used...and the hands and the swirls in the background and and and!!! (It's cool)
I'm glad people still drawn Intern Secretary Eggbug; I hope they and Eggbug just sort of become Internet Immortal
^Also extremely obsessed with this
Phinxel with the little raincoat and Phinxel Umbrella is soooo goood. His expression is so cute. T____T Gotta keep his chicken friends dry...
I've heard the phrase "blaseball band" for the first time this week and heard it multiple times since then from different people and just the fact that I never heard of this phenomenon for years & then noticed multiple times so close together has had me going "????" all week. RELEVANT THEMES SOMETIMES, INDEED.....
Hope you're hanging in there, ahm! I'm struggling with the social anxiety/post-cohost stuff too but if you ever wanna just chat on discord...infodump about decker features or give me the deep Phinxel Lore, feel free. Hope you enjoy the blaseball concert!!
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More context, than you probably don't need but lol: Blaseball was a horror-comedy baseball simulator that ran on a website from 2020-2023. It was something that people could occupy themselves with in lockdown and it developed a very passionate, anti-capitalist and queer fanbase. Some fan music projects came out of it, the biggest one was the garages which are an entirely online band with an uncertain number of members and associate members (somebody knows how many people are in the band! I sure don't!).
An album from them usually has completely different people involved on each track but some theme or vibe connects everything together, and your favorite song writers or vocalists or saxophonist will usually show up again on various other albums (and there are a lot of albums with this many people involved). And I just love 'em.
But Blaseball is over, and this particular fan project has been finishing up the things they still wanted to do. This is probably the last garages show ever. It's called "the garages sign off" after all... 🥲 Endings are bittersweet, but I wouldn't miss it for the world.
So, yeah, that's the backstory to why the phrase 'blaseball band' has been whispered on the wind lately.
I am doing okay!! Constantly trying to figure out how to be social... and maybe reach out to people that I added on discord 2 months ago but we said hi and then nothing.... while also trying to figure out the rhythms of newly forming friendships... I absolutely wanna talk to you more. :D We will be talking.
We're gonna figure it out.
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"and maybe reach out to people that I added on discord 2 months ago but we said hi and then nothing.... "
Ah yeah........yeah, I definitely feel this one... Lately I've found myself wondering if I should have exchanged email addresses with people too. Like, the electronic equivalent of penpals somehow feels less daunting than saying "hi what's up" in discord LMAO.
We're gonna figure it out!!
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And yay for getting the new friend!
I sometimes get lost on what to say to friends, also, but I think the act of keeping in touch is something we all learn bit by bit. Again, I'm rooting for you :)
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